"It's cleaning time!"

I love my blog so much that I think I NEED to clear the remnants of cobwebs dangling precariously from every corner of my web page. xxx

Injustice

Never felt so despondent before. Since tears do not help, what does? Life is unfair.

Difference between friends and best friends

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…” (Note, if you don’t understand this, watch The Ring. Then watch The Ring 2. Then watch Ringu.)
FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.
FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”
FRIENDS: Will help you move.
BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
or
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!
FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.
BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this :)

Not being photogenic

Every so often I feel down in the mouth when I find that whenever I take a picture of myself or with friends, I bear resemblance to a donkey. It just doesn't look like me at all; I look extremely ugly. Does anyone of you find that when a photo of yourself has been taken, you don't look like the image you see in the picture? But when you check yourself out in the mirror, it is completely a different image. I suffered from an inferiority complex because I thought that people don't see me the way I see myself in the mirror. I don't want to feel so bummed out anymore, so I googled to see if anyone has the same problem as me. Well, apparently yes. After looking in the forums, I am back to my usual happy self because I was wrong about the part where I thought that people don't see me the way I see myself in the mirror.

Someone wrote this on one of the forums that puts a smile on my face:
"Oh wow, you're just like me! I hate having my picture taken because most of the time my face gets distorted somehow, especially when photos are taken with digital cameras. There are a handful of pictures of me that have out great, and some of those were actually driver's license photos.

The fact is, some people just aren't photogenic. They may be quite attractive in person, but photographs don't show it. I remember a friend of mine once showing me pictures of one of his friends. The guy didn't look very impressive in the photos, in fact he looked very average, but when I actually met him I was blown away by how handsome he was.

Some average people, on the other hand, are so photogenic you can't take a bad picture of them. I've seen this happen. I've seen women less attractive than me in person look 10 times better in photographs. It's so frustrating!

I remember reading a photographer's message board once, and several of them were trying to photograph models. Some were complaining that the girl was gorgeous in person, but they couldn't do a thing to make her look gorgeous on film. I suspect some women don't get modeling jobs because their beauty just isn't captured on film.

My brother is a rather good-looking guy, but most photos of him come out looking terrible.

I've found that when I see pictures of myself right after they're taken, I get really upset. After some time has gone by, some of them actually start to look good. Part of it the problem is I'm super critical of myself. But I know what you're dealing with. I've had the same problem my whole life."

From wikipedia:
"A person described as being photogenic may not necessarily look so photogenic in real life. Often, a person who appears attractive in real life may look less attractive in photograph. This phenomenon is caused by the three dimensional and two dimensional polarizing effect and could explain why a person looks "better" in two dimensions than in three or vice versa. Therefore, a person described as photogenic means he or she looks better in two dimensions.

An additional factor is the charisma a person might bear in real life due to the way they move, express, and behave themselves. While this will positively influence the subjective appearance of that person in real life, a still photograph usually fails to reproduce these attributes, possibly rendering a picture of the person less attractive than the real-life perception and contributing to classify that person as less photogenic."

So I am not photogenic after all. Whatever it is, I am never ever going to take pictures of myself again until I die. The end.

Ranting about life

Hi there. I apologise for the lack of updates these few days as the lazy me is too indolent to blog about anything.

The purpose of me blogging this is to rant about the life that I am leading here. My friend, Poy, is going overseas next year for university as an art student; she wants to be a fashion designer. In Singapore, you have to go through Polytechnic or JC before you can go to university - or even worst, you have to start from ITE. Because of this, I encourage my second sister to follow the route that Poy is going. She likes cooking so maybe she can become student at a culinary school in the states. All she has to do is to go take the American test, and if she does pass, she would be eligible to admit into a university in the states. I ask you, does she necessary have to go through Polytechnic just for a cooking course? I think it would be better to go straight to a culinary school. However, not ALL universities do accept the American test certificate. If you are aiming for the top universities, you need the O-level certificate. I like to cook too. How I wish I can go.

In my country, life is so fucking stress. I can die from studying, let alone working in the future. Most of the students have school from 8 AM to 3 PM. After school, we have remediation from 3 PM to 5 PM. And it just doesn't end there; some people even have idiotic tuitions at night. What about the adults then? They freaking work from 9 AM to 7 PM; some even have to work longer than that. Tell me, where has the word 'fun' go to from their dictionary? This makes me want to migrate even more! Life should not be like this. In New Zealand, they end work at 3 PM. Can you see the big difference?

Singapore is too competitive, hence it is too much for me to handle. I just wish that she could slow down a little bit more.

Dinner at Jim Thompson

Taken using iPhone 4
Last night, I had dinner at Jim Thompson with my family; it is located at Dempsey Hill. Basically this restaurant offers "definitive Thai cuisine in a Dempsey Hill heritage venue with a stunning interior designed to surpass any other Thai restaurant in the world." Enough said.

The food was excellent. The service was 5-stars. The ambience was great. The interior and exterior designs were exquisite and meticulous. The venue was perfect. The bill was $200 plus. Yes, everything was perfect maybe except for the bill. BUT, I was grumpy and grouchy throughout my duration there. Why was it so if you ask me? It is a first-class restaurant yet someone was behaving like a hooligan shouting and spewing vulgarities at his friend on his phone during our meal. How outrageous! Since you are in a high class restaurant, you ought to know how to behave. This is not some typical coffee shops where you can do whatever you like. Luckily we were seated way back behind where no one really sits there, if not I can't imagine how am I going to hold up my face to others after that scandalous behaviour you had just produced. I mean even our server has this appalled look! You totally lose my respect.

Taken using iPhone 4Taken using iPhone 3Gs
Those photos that were taken by iPhone 4 look so stunning. Look at its lightning and how sharp the details look. After seeing how beautiful these photos turn out using my sister's iPhone 4, I was tempted to upgrade my iPhone. Mine is such a disappointment as compared to her one. I think I'll just wait for iPhone 5 or 6 to come out since Apple always releases new iPhone annually on June. I have to say that I am a big fan of Apple's products. I do watch all the keynotes that Steve Jobs has - on YouTube or the Apple website. This man is clearly a genius. Not to mention, I might be getting a MacBook Pro next year! *Swoons*

Preliminary results

I am satisfied with the results I received albeit I didn't study for this round.

English - 57/100
Social Studies - 33/50
Math - Paper 1: 43/100, Paper 2: 23/80
DnT- 31/100 (I passed every of this paper last year... but stupid Wong didn't give us notes this year.)
Geography: I didn't take the paper.
Combined Science: I didn't give a damn = Failed (expected)
Chinese: I don't know.

P says that I can go to Polytechnic next year after seeing my results. I have assurance that I can pass my English, Combined Humanities, Chinese (I'm retaking albeit I passed), Math and DnT if I hit the books. But what weighs me down is that at the end of the day, I couldn't get 13 points.

Conclusion: ITE.

Life is a journey

“Life is a journey that must be traveled no matter how bad the roads and accommodations.” - Oliver Goldsmith

Whenever I see someone goes on a trip and writes the experience on his/her blog, I feel that life should be leaded that way. The course that you choose to walk will determine where you will be going. But the paths that you walk on these remarkable countries are going to be special. You don’t know where you are going because you're unfamiliar with it which I find it thrilling. It's the surroundings that keep you going. You turn to your right and see something new to you or something common when you turn to your left. You learn and notice something new along the way. You learn their cultures, languages and lifestyle. You survey how they interact with each other or greet when they first met. You go to Africa and the people there change your life. You tell yourself that you're fortunate enough and should not take things for granted. In next to no time, you will appreciate all and sundry around you. Ultimately, you changed - in a good way. You go to Alaska and find yourself realising that the Earth we live on is actually a beautiful planet. The nature seems so surreal to you. The beauty of nature leaves you speechless and flabbergasted. From somewhere far away, you hear music - the sound of nature. This beautiful melody tranquillises you and brings your worriment to a trip. You feel appreciative that you were born to witness something so extraordinary. The world suddenly turns silent and you know what's coming - Peace.

And when you have finally come to an end, there is something inside your head that you won't be able to put out of your mind; something that has already been etched to your memory. You will leave the place with a blissful soul and a contented heart. You feel glad that you have taste what life is all about.
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Talking about trips, I can't wait for the 26th of November to arrive. It is the day when I'll be flying on an airplane to Bangkok. We will in Thailand for three weeks. Trust my mum to not feel harried despite of the fact that I've been relentlessly badgering about the trip at her. However, before we get to shop in Bangkok, we have to go to the countryside to visit my relatives. I surmise we will be staying there for about a week. On the happier note, my father will not be joining us to the countryside for the reason that he doesn't like rural places. So he is going to Pattaya instead.

The first thing I will do when I am back in Bangkok is to go straighten and colour my hair at a local salon. But I am caught in a dilemma whether I should dye my hair dark brown or ash brown. Many mentioned to me that I don't suit black hair. And next would be the shopping! Shopping makes me happy. The vintage clothing, wedges, gladiator heels, bags and ……. I am getting a new personal luggage before the journey starts. I bet it’s going to be wild.

What is the right choice?

I discussed about this with P before. I do not know if I have make the right decision about coming up to Secondary 5 for I know in the end, my efforts will come down to nothing (I don't get to go to a Polytechnic). Okay, maybe I might possibly get into one but I would without doubt not be able to get into a course I want. What is my real interest? Business. I like anything that is related to business. Enrolling into a business-related course needs 10 to 13 points. But the main headache here is that I would never ever be able to get that kind of points. I know myself. I know where I stand so don't come telling me that if I genuinely study for it, I can achieve it. Seriously, you are like telling me to go jump off a building. I am no Einstein. I don't get As for any of my subjects except for design and technology. That was last year's. I wouldn't even dare to bet that this year's would be the same. I have lost all my motivation. Sometimes things like this stuck me. I cannot help feeling really disheartened and depressed.

During some period of time, I was really into nursing. Since I have wipe out the thought of not being able to get into a business-related course, nursing is my next choice. To be frank, I never thought I would be interested in nursing. So this actually stimulated me to study. But there was a huge obstacle bugging me - Science. Since young, I have always abominated Science and would repeatedly get an F9. But nursing needs me to pass Science in order to admit into the course. During my Physics and Chemistry lessons, I actually paid attention to my teachers and even tried to attempt their homework in a serious manner. However I gradually came to be sick and tired of trying so hard seeing that I still did not get the results that I hoped for. What does this show to you? This shows that you won't succeed in doing something if you are not truly interested in it. I finally get it now. In a New York minute, I felt devastated. The only hope to get into a Polytechnic crashed.

But then again I thought, there is still another option for me - ITE. Albeit it is a longer route to get into a Polytechnic, I am all right with it because at least I can get into a course that I like. I believe that I will regret if I really took up the nursing course because it is just a substitute choice for me. Life is like that. Some people can easily go for the shorter route if they want while some have no choice but to go for the longer one.

What is the right choice?

Long Beach King Seafood Restaurant

The title says it all. I had my dinner there with my family today. Basically what we had for dinner were chilli crab, sweet and sour fish, big crispy prawns, fried rice (for my sisters) and raw oysters (for my father). The bill came as $400 plus. I was extremely bloated after the scrumptious dinner. I will end this post with pictures.

My sister

My mummy

Tour around Marina Bay area

What P and I mostly did was walk, walk and more walking; my legs went completely wobbly.

We took the train to Marina Bay, walked to Marina Square and had our breakfast there. Due to our bloated bellies after our breakfast, we decided to take bus 133M to Marina Bay Sands but the bus never came. So we walked to the hotel instead... Man, it was magnificent (and ridiculously expensive)! However, the cost to the Skypark is merely $20; I have got to go up there one day. In addition, the architecture is splendid. Well done, Marina Bay Sands. As we wanted to go visit the Marina Barrage, we took the bus to the Esplanade. There, we literally had to walk all the way back to Raffles Place MRT station. It was a total hell; the merciless almighty orb shone directly at our bodies. Geez, I can't stand the sun. We stopped and toured the Fullerton Hotel before heading back to the subway. Again, we were back at the Marina Bay and we had to walk all the way down to a bus stop where a bus would come take us to Marina Barrage. So, instead of not sitting at the open field like many others did, we decided to take the weight off our feet at the green roof where a shelter was there to shield us from the bloody sun. After resting and fooling around for an hour, we decided to go back to Ang Mo Kio Hub and did lunch there.

We had Pepper lunch for our lunch. I had Beef Pepper Rice whereas P had Chicken Pepper rice. We patronised many shops after that. I fell in love with a dress and a bag at first sight. I think I am going to get them (and a sunglasses) tomorrow! P and I are going to get the same bag in grey and dark green respectively.

Albeit I was entirely depleted, I still love today.

P/S: I donated $0.20 to a poor lady.

Possibly pneumonia

It's currently 3:01 AM. Due to my breathing difficulty with chest pain (here it comes again, it happens almost every month or so, FML) I can't fell asleep. I had to literally sit straight up so the pain will be less torturing. This feeling sucks, a lot; the pain makes me want to die. I have to breathe in and out really loudly in order to survive.

I googled about this problem and I think I might be having Pneumonia because the symptoms are similar to what I am having now.

"Pneumonia is a general term that refers to an infection of the lungs, which can be caused by a variety of microorganisms, including viruses, bacteria, fungi, and parasites."

"Often pneumonia begins after an upper respiratory tract infection (an infection of the nose and throat). When this happens, symptoms of pneumonia begin after 2 or 3 days of a cold or sore throat."

Signs and Symptoms:
* fever
* chills
* cough
* unusually rapid breathing
* breathing with grunting or wheezing sounds
* labored breathing that makes a child's rib muscles retract (when muscles under the rib cage or between ribs draw inward with each breath)
* vomiting
* chest pain
* abdominal pain
* decreased activity
* loss of appetite (in older children) or poor feeding (in infants)
* in extreme cases, bluish or gray color of the lips and fingernails

I had a really bad sore throat before it got me into this.

Everyone is sleeping like a pig in the bedroom whilst I'm now at the living room watching TV.

New York City

What is it about New York that I am in fact being so enthralled by it? New York is a city that never sleeps and that is one point I like about that. Everything is so fast-paced plus you would never miss any excitement that is constantly coming to your way! New York has numerous of high and big buildings and I would like to say that their architecture is the most excellent that I have ever seen. Personally, I am kind of into the architecture thing because I love buildings. I have no idea why but I presume that perhaps it’s because of the fact that I am a design and technology student.

My ultimate dream is to live there. Of course Singapore is an amazing country but I feel that I don’t fit in here. You see, it is kind of a family city. I like a fast-paced lifestyle and I believe that New York is the right one for me. That is why I would always visit Marina Bay because it looks a bit like New York except that it has lesser and shorter buildings.

To be able to own an apartment in Manhattan is something I would like to achieve. I want to live in a tall building where I can look out of my window to admire the city skyscrapers. In order to migrate there, I need lots of money, money and money because NY is exorbitant! From now onwards, I have to make sure that the money in my bank has to increase every month so that my dream of migrating there will be closer...

Anyway, this is more or less of how my ideal apartment looks like.

I used Paint and took quite some time to do this! You may wonder what are those three boxes doing on top of the window... Actually they are paintings. What's that on the floor? It's a giant carpet! The walls are in red because I find it sexy. Ha ha!

By the way, at age 21, I am going there with J! Gosh, suddenly I feel like going to Changi Airport now...

Round

I like how the Earth is round. It makes me feel round.

I am a happy girl

New York baby!

Yesterday, I met up with J again. What we did talk about were discussing about setting up our blogshop, gossiping and stuff. It was pretty fun. She brought her laptop along and we watched some Scare Tactics' videos on YouTube. I just simply adore this show. Basically Scare Tactics is a set-up, hidden camera reality prank show that puts "victims" into terrifying situations. Horror themes are the best because it really scares the shit out of those "victims".

Anyway, something really funny happened when we were inside This Fashion. I was browsing along the clothes when J suddenly held up a T-shirt. Because of the way she held I only saw the back view of the shirt. Immediately I told her that it was plain. But she said, "look again!" She turned the shirt around and there I saw 'New York City' printed largely on the front of the shirt. Guess what? I totally went berserk! All the words that were coming out from my mouth was 'OMG, OMG, OMG!' So eventually we planned to buy the shirts together on another day because we did not have enough cash at that time.

By the way, don't you find it amusing? You see, it is an ordinary shirt but when I saw 'New York City', my impression of the 'plain' shirt changed to 'OMG, THAT IS A BEAUTIFUL SHIRT.'

Once I reached home, I donned on a honey and lemon juice mask which I made it by myself. It is a good old remedy for your face you can use at home. Just in case if any one of you wants to know the formula, I'll write down the steps here.

Firstly, you must have these ingredients and tools.
- Honey
- Lemons
- A small bowl
- A lid to cover the bowl
- Tablespoon
- Knife
- Cotton balls

Now let's start on how to make a honey and lemon juice mask.
Step 1: Clean your face with mild soap and make sure it is dry afterwards.
Step 2: Cut a lemon into half and squeeze the juice into a small bowl.
Step 3: Scoop one tablespoon of honey and use your clean index finger to apply it on your face.
Step 4: Dip a cotton ball into the lemon juice and dub it on your "honey" face.
*Precaution: Do not use the same cotton ball to re-soak because it is very unhygienic.
Step 5: Leave it on for 20 to 30 minutes. (In my case, I do leave it longer.)
Step 6: Wash it off with SOLELY warm water.

Do it every day and your face will become smoother and whiter each day. Lemons cure pimple scars and make your skin whiter whereas honey gives you a soft, smooth, glowing and healthy-looking skin. In addition, drinking lemon juice is also another great way for curing your skin. Doing both externally and internally is even better!

After using this method for the second time now, I swear that my pimple scars are going lighter than before! I was bowled over by such fast result that I received. I am a happy girl now! By the way, I promise myself never to use any acne products again. It just worsens my face and it never improves.

Oh another thing, remember to drink lots of water every day because it washes the toxin out of your body! Off to get some water now. :)

The Pretty Reckless

Nothing like lying on my sister's bed and using blogbooster (an app in my iPhone) to update my blog.

Anyway, a few minutes ago, I went into J's blog and saw her latest post on Gossip Girl. I just wanted to say that I am extremely infatuated with The Pretty Reckless and guess who is fronting the band? It's Taylor Momsen who is best known for her portrayer of Jenny Humphrey on Gossip Girl! I would never imagine her having such a voice despite her being just a teenager. I like listening to rock songs and her music is just the right one for me. I have got to say that this band has totally made me being obsessed with all their songs.

These are my favourites:
1) Make me wanna die
2) Zombie
3) Just tonight
4) Heart
5) Miss nothing

There is a cover of Love The Way You Lie + Islands by her too. It is absolutely astonishing! Oh by the way, their debut album has just released recently. They have a long way to go and I wish them all the best for their future albums! Glad to say that I'm their biggest fan!

I don't know whether should I...

Back to blogging

I know this may seem weird but I feel like blogging out of a sudden. So here I am, back to the blogging world. I will try to blog frequently.

So, life has not been really good for me recently. To be frank, I have lost the motivation to study. To be exact, I don't feel like studying for the big 'O'. Somehow I do feel quite regretful coming up to Secondary 5. You see, I am not by nature an intelligent person. In order to get good grades, I have to work really hard. But to some people, they do not at all because they were born with a brain that I would kill to have. Furthermore, some of them have talents to show to the world and there they receive fame and money. This is why people always say 'life is unfair'.

Now what talent do I actually have? None. Yes, none. I could not think of any. It's pathetic, isn't it?

Never mind about the talent part. All I really want is to enjoy life; I want to go out to see the world. So when the day I turn 21, I am leaving this place to seek for a better life. What makes me feel happy? NY.

Happy birthday, J

So I am back.

Perhaps I just find most of what I do, not really blog worthy as I have been getting so busy in school and it is wearing me out.

Anyway, I would like to dedicate a post to J as it is her birthday today.

To J:
Hi. I have known you since primary 5 and I am extremely elated that we can still be in touch with each other until now. Can you believe this? It has been 6 years!

I know that sometimes you feel very insecure about yourself but you have got to admit that you are a very adorable, charming and peppy young lady! Look at the people around you. They don’t have that unique face of yours…

What the most amazing thing is that we both have the same dreams and wants.

1) A trip to New York before we die
2) Study in London
3) Learn piano

You know, I like how we can get so crazy about New York and even check out its travel books in the library. I like how you can always laugh at the silliest things and I would always laugh along. I like how we can go haywire and giggle like some mad patients on the loose. I like the time when we spent in Changi airport and listed down 20+ countries of where we want to go in the future together. And I even like how we have the same (I can't find the word to express this) towards angmoh. Cool, isn't it? All of these are great memories and I won't forget.

I feel great to have an awesome friend like you, J. Someone who shares her secrets with me, believes in me and regards me as her BFF.

Lastly, happy birthday to you! You're finally seventeen and you will soon have your leeway to fulfil your dreams.

"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked." ~ Bernard Meltzer

Life sucks

I don't walk with a jaunty step anymore. I'm missing the ol' perky me. Life is bad but stil lovin' it. What can I exactly do? Life still fucking goes on.

I will write again soon.

How bizzarre

Albeit I had my hands on my dream smartphone, but somehow I don't feel delighted at all.

What's going on?

I should be happy

Today, school was terrible; I should not have attended it. My snappy mood had caused me to get fed up with practically everything.

I walked out of the school at 13:30. The sweltering sun shone directly at me and soon a slight drizzle descended, thus causing me to fall a little sick. Right after I got back home, mum talked about iPhone and later agreed to buy it for me. I should be getting this fabulous smartphone on this coming Sunday. *Swoons*